I'm Thinking Too Much That It's Making Me Sad.

Full Name: Sandy Kim
Age: 21
What is your worst fear?
- Failing & disappointment.
What do you often find yourself thinking about?
- Life.
Who is the most important person to you, and why?
- Tim, because he's the only person that cares about the 'real' me.
Is there anything you wish you could tell someone but can't?
- No, I think.
What is your mood most often?
- Random. :P
Who are the people/persons that can always make you happy?
- Tim, my family, & friends.
What are your most wanted desires or dreams?
- To be happy & successful.
Who do you hate/strongly dislike the most?
- No one, I've passed that phase long ago.
Why do you hate/strongly dislike them?
- I don't dislike anyone.
What do you do when you're extremely angry?
- Let it out somehow lol.
What's the hardest thing you've had to go through in your life?
- Everything.
Do you think you can completely trust anyone?
- Yeah, but not a lot.
What do you think of love and heartbreak?
- Wonderful, yet nasty thing to experience.
What is your idea of complete happiness?
- Never letting anything get to your head.
What really makes you angry?
- Stupid people like drivers.
Do you look up to any celebrity? If so, why?
- Adam Sandler, because he's funny & inspirational.
What do you think awaits in your future?
- Who knows.
Do you think the world is changing for the better or worst?
- Unfortunately worst.
You have to live in your hometown for the rest of your life. Reaction?
- Gay.
Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be truly happy?
- No, but it always makes me happy.
If you knew you were to die in a month, what would you do with your time?
- Make the best of everything I do.
Do you think you make the best choices most of the time?
- Sometimes actually haha.
Have you ever told someone you care for them and been turned down?
- Yeah.
If you could do anything illegal and not get caught, what would it be?
- Nothing.
Do you really say everything you want to all of the time?
- Nope.
What is the one thing you want most out of life?
- Happiness.
What is something people normally don't know about you?
- My personality.
If you're crying, what's most likely the reason?
- Stress.
Do you think you need to have friends?
- I do, but at the same time not.
Are you afraid of divorce?
- Yes.
What animal do you most relate to and why?
- I don't know, I can't say my favorite animal.
Do you believe all people are equal?
- Yes.
Any guilty pleasures?
- My weakness with Tiramisu.
Is money important to you?
- No, it's the last thing on my list.
If war spilled into your country, what would you do?
- Fight & protect the people I care about.
Do you believe in yourself?
- Yeah, sometimes lol.
Are people generally good?
- Nobody is perfectly good, but sometimes yes.

Tired of Writing Short Answers! xO

What do you think about Gay Marriage?
- If you love someone than go for it, no matter what gender they are.
Have you ever been bullied?
- Yes I have been, but a long time ago.
Have you ever bullied some one else?
- No, unless I was joking around than yes. (:
Do you think the statement "all men are created equal" is true?
- Nobody takes it seriously lol.
How would you describe your home life?
- I don't know, but I want to live by the sea. (:
Have you ever stuck up for someone when they were being bullied?
- Yeah, but it turned out to be a bad idea. :(
Do you have a deep, dark secret?
- Everyone does.
Who knows this secret?
- The person closest to me, Tim.
If the love of your life moved four states away, would you stay with them?
- Of course I would.
What are some things that would make you break up with someone?
- Gee that's a stupid question, cheating & lying.
Have you ever had something to do with a crime?
- Nope.
When was the last time you said I love you and ment it romantically?
- Always. :D
Same as above but to you?
- Every single day~
What would you do if the love of your life was in serious danger?
- I'd save him, I wouldn't just run away & let him get hurt.
What was the worst breakup you've ever had?
- Hm.. I don't feel like talking about it. :D
What would you do if you saw a homeless person crying?
- If I can, I would go up to this person & ask what's wrong with them & help cheer them up. (I said IF)
Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
- Yes.
What is the worst thing you've ever said to someone?
- F*ck you, what else? Lol.
Could you leave the current person you're dating if they cheated?
- Oh man, I've talked about this to myself. It'd be hard but I'd do it because he basically lied.
Have you ever been cheated on?
- Yes, it hurted. :(
What song means most to you?
- The Flobots - Rise.
Which person/people mean most to you?
- Tim.
How much do you care about family?
- I care about them a lot, but lately it's been different...
Have you ever been disowned from a family member?
- Nope.
Have you ever been disowned by a friend?
- As in lose contact yes.
Have you ever disowned someone?
- I've had to. :(
What pattern describes your mood right now?
- Uhhh... Straight line? Lol.
What color describes your mood right now?
- Mmmm... I don't know mood colors. Purple for lazy? Lol.
Can you think of a reasonable answer to why you feel the way you do?
- Too much studying & lack of sleep.
Have you ever felt as if you lost your One True Love?
- Oh yeah of course, but than you realize that you were being dumbfounded with what 'true love' really meant.
Have you ever actually slept with someone (not sex)?
- Yeah, I take a lot of naps with Tim when I'm at his house.
How did it feel when you first kissed your current bf/gf?
- It was amazing & unexpecting since it was our first date LOL.
What does it feel like to hold their hand?
- It feels nice & comforting.
Have you ever been forced to do something you didn't want to do?
- Plenty of times.
Who do you think is smarter: You or your Parents?
- Neither, because my parents aren't smarter than me & neither am I to them.
Describe what you feel in your heart right now:
- It's beating. :D
When you close your eyes, what do you see?
- Those squiggles I've seen since I was 4.
What do you dream of?
- Pretty random stuff.
Would you take home a hurt animal you found outside?
- I have before, but my mom got mad at me. :(
How would you feel if you couldn't have the person you're with?
- Just move on, live my life, & when the time comes go for it.
What would you do without your best friends?
- You mean best friend? I'd be at such a loss. (:
What would you do without your family?
- I wouldn't be here. :P
If you lost everything, how would you survive?
- I'd just keep going.
Would you take care of your sick parents/grandparents?
- I have & I still will.
What have you accomplished in your life so far?
- I haven't gotten completely insane. :D

Ladida~

I took off my blog so that I can concentrate more on writing in my journal by hand. But at least I'll still have surveys. :D

List 10 Of Your Friends (Any Gender) Below:
1. Tim
2. Matt
3. Rosa
4. Kacey
5. Richard
6. Joel
7. Samantha
8. Kalvyn
9. Hayley
10. April

Now Answer The Questions Below Referring To The Friends You Listed Above.
How long have you known 1?: Over 2 years now.
Have you been to 8's house?: Yes.
Do you like 6?: As my friend yes. (:
Are 4 and 10 friends?: Nope.
Have you been to 3's house?: Yes.
Would you ever live with 5?: Probably not.
When was the last time you talked to 4?: Thursday.
Would 1 and 6 make a good couple?: No lol.
How about 8 and 10?: Absolutely not.
Have you ever dreamt about 2?: No.
Have you ever slept with 9?: No.
Is 7 attractive?: She's cute & I miss her. <3
Do you love 4?: Yes I do. <3
Would you ever cuddle with 1?: Yes.
Would you ever kiss 3?: No.
What do you like best about 6?: He makes the most ridiculous decks & somehow it works.
Have you ever had a crush on 1, 3, 5, 7, or 9?: I love 1, No to 3, 5, 7, 9.
Do you ever wish you never met 3?: No, she's my sister.
How did you meet 5?: High school, but I didn't get to know him till now.
Has 2 seen you naked?: No.
Have you seen 2 naked?: No.
Who is taller? 5 or 10?: Hmm.. I don't know, it might be a tie.
Have you met 4's family?: No.
Would you ever go out with 3?: As in sister bonding sure.
Do you think 7 is funny?: Yes.
What about 6?: Yes.
Where was the last place you went with 1?: His house.
When was the last time you hung out with 2?: Last year.
Where do you want to take 3?: Somewhere she likes to go, like Rio buffet.
When do you want to see 4?: Soon.
Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?: Oh no, #5 would kill me. :P
Have 7 and 8 ever kissed?: Someone else yes.
Would 9 or 10 ever live together?: Nopes.
Would you let 3 have your baby?: Umm... No.
Have you ever told 1 a deep dark secret?: Yes.
Has 1 ever told you a secret?: Yes.
Would you runaway with 6?: No.
Who was the last person 9 kissed?: I don't know.
Who was the last person 7 hugged?: Probably her fiance.
What word or phrase does 5 say alot?: Wtf.
Does 6 make you laugh?: Yes. (:
Does 2 ever annoy you?: No.
When did you last call 4?: I never called her yet. :(
Do you ever talk to 3 online?: Nope.
What about 2?: Nope.
Does 10 smell bad?: No.
Does 1 smell nice?: Yes.
Are 1 and 8 friends?: Yes.

Can't Believe Tomorrow... (:

Really Odd Questions.

Would you ever do anything illegal?
- If it's dangerous probably not.
Have you ever been so happy it felt like you were on drugs?
- Hypothetically yes?
Do you like any sort of fast food place?
- In & Out, I love eating their protein burgers.
Are you good at lying?
- It depends, but usually yes.
If you had a blog, what would you blog about?
- About my boring life... (:
Would you rather dye your hair much lighter or much darker?
- I've always thought about dark red, but unsure now.
What do you think is the funniest movie you've ever seen?
- I don't know, there's too many to count. Probably the really old movies because me & Tim like to make fun of it & say our own words to it. (:
When was the last time you couldn't sleep well?
- Funny you should ask. Today -_-;
What would you like on your toast?
- Jelly.
Do you think you're fat or skinny?
- I'm average.
Has anyone ever told you otherwise?
- Everyone thinks I'm skinny.
What if someone offered you a modeling contract right now?
- Someone has before & I denied.
Would you like your own line of clothing?
- I don't really have a style, but maybe.
Drawing or painting?
- Both.
What scent makes you smile?
- Anything that smells good, like food hahaha.
Would you rather win unfairly or lose?
- Lose.
Have you ever felt worthless?
- Yes.
Have a favorite kind of gum?
- Nope, just the minty kind. (:
Would you ever wear 3D glasses just because?
- I think I have before on accident LOL.
Do you like flannel shirts?
- Yes.
Ever wanted to run away?
- Yes.
Are you more social or introspective?
- More introspective then social.
What's your opinion of vegans?
- Nothing, I considered being one but I don't know how well I'd do it.
What is the most amount of money you've ever spent on one thing?
- Tim's laptop.
Do you have any bad habits?
- Everyone does.
Would you ever take a ballet class?
- Maybe for fun yeah.
Are hoodies comfy?
- I love hoodies <3.
Would you rather drink and not eat for a day or eat and not drink?
- Eat & not drink.
Don't you hate it when your batteries die?
- Of course, but they don't last forever.
How much of your time in a day is wasted?
- Couple hours sometimes.
Anyone you want to have a talk with right now?
- Yeah, Tim.
What can't you get off your mind?
- Nothing?
What is the thing that you do best?
- Being too nice.
Would you rather give or take?
- Give.
What is something you've always been afraid of?
- Clowns & Dolls.
What do you want right now?
- Something good to eat, but too lazy to go anywhere haha.
Is it different than what you wanted a week ago?
- Most likely.
What has made the most difference in your life lately?
- Being with Tim.
Do you think you have a good heart?
- Not a pure heart, but to some degree yes.
Would you rather go to a party or stay home?
- Depends, but I'd usually stay home.
When was the last time you really cried?
- Last year.
Do you like all the glitz and glamour of Hollywood?
- No, I think it's stupid.
Have you ever had awful neighbors?
- Yes.
Would you like to have a fence infront of your residence?
- No.
Do you really believe in love?
- Yes.
Have you ever insulted a teacher?
- No, I don't ever have the guts to be a bad student haha.
If given the chance, would you grace the cover of a magazine?
- No.
Do you have any opinion of Oprah?
- Nope.
How much TV do you watch a day, on average?
- Maybe about 2-3hrs a day, since I'm not in school yet.
Does the internet tend to consume you?
- Sometimes, but not all the time.
Are you inclined to learn about random things just because?
- Yes. :D
In this moment, are you confident?
- Uhhh... Yes?
Did you make any New Years resolutions?
- I did, but I thought about it & said, "Forget it, as if I'm really going to follow each one xP."
When was the last time you had to stop yourself from crying?
- Last year.
Have you lost anything special recently?
- Nope.
Do you believe you have love left in you anymore?
- I'll always have love in me. :D
Would you give your whole heart to someone else just to make them happy?
- I have.
Ever felt like a victim of anything?
- Of course, everyone has.
What is something you never want to end?
- What I have in my life right now.

First Survey of 2010

What Happened In the Past Year???
How many relationships were you in?
- Just one (:
What did you do for Valentine's day?
- Nothing, we don't like that holiday.
Did you receive your driver's license?
- I've had my license for 2 years now.
Did you graduate high school?
- Nope, I graduated in 2007.
Did you graduate college?
- Nope.
Did you move out on your own?
- Nope, hopefully I will this year.
Did you get arrested?
- Nope.
Did you get a speeding ticket?
- No, I got a warning back in February.
What was the best thing you got for Christmas?
- Love.
Did you fall in love?
- I'm always in love with him. <3
Did you become an aunt or an uncle?
- Nope.
Did you have a baby?
- Nope.
Did you get engaged?
- Nope.
Did you get married?
- Nope.
Did someone close to you die?
- Yeah.
How many funerals did you go to?
- None.
How many weddings?
- None.
Did you turn 18?
- Nope.
Did you turn 21?
- Yeah.
Did you turn 30?
- Nope.
Did you have a car accident?
- Nope.
Were you old enough to vote this year?
- Yeah.
How many jobs did you have throughout the year?
- Just one.
Did you get a new pet?
- Nope.
Did you get cheated on?
- No, at least I hope not lol.
Did you cheat on someone?
- No way.
Did you start at a new school?
- Nope.
Did you make any new friends?
- Yes. (:
Did you get a new car?
- Nope, but that's okay I love Shiva. (:
Did you drastically change your hairstyle?
- Kinda, keeping it short now.
Did you go out of the country?
- Nope.
Did you keep your last New Year's resolution?
- Nobody ever remembers.
What was the best movie you saw in theaters?
- Most likely Up.
What was the best book you read?
- None.... :(
What was your greatest accomplishment?
- I don't know, too many to say.
What was the best CD released this year?
- I have no idea.
Did you get a new tattoo?
- Nope.
A new piercing?
- Nope.
Are you still dating the same person you dated at the start of the year?
- Yes. <3

The Lasts of the Past
How old were you on your last birthday?
- 21.
Who was your last kiss?
- Tim.
Who was the last person to tell you "I love you"?
- Tim.
Who was the last person you spoke to in person?
- Rosa.
Who was your last missed call?
- Paul.
Who was your last phone call to?
- Tim.
What was the last movie you watched?
- Um.... No idea. Nightmare before Christmas?
The last song you heard?
- I don't know. :P
The last book you read?
- None.
The last place you went?
- Tim's house.
The last time you cut your hair?
- Around end of October.
The color of the last shirt your wore?
- Gray.
The last person you hugged?
- Tim.
The last thing you bought?
- Calendars & Journal.
The last time you went to the doctor?
- It's been a while.
The last time you went swimming?
- Probably spring time? Been a long time.
The last game you played?
- Rainbow Six on Xbox.
The last person's house you went to?
- Tim.
The last un-related guy you hung out with?
- Tim & Steve.
The last un-related girl you hung out with?
- Sasi, Sasi's sister, & Tomijo.
The last family member you hung out with?
- My mom.
The last movie you saw in theaters?
- Ponyo.
The last time you went to Walmart?
- Probably November?
The last time you went to Burger King?
- I don't think I had any Burger King last year, so probably 2008.
The last time you went on vacation?
- August.
The last restaurant you went to?
- Oyshi.
The last thing you ate?
- Shrimp.
The last thing you drank?
- Water.

The Firsts of the New Year
Who was the first person you kissed?
- Tim. (:
Who was the first person you told "I love you" to?
- Tim.
Who was the first person you spoke to?
- Tim.
Who was your first phone call to/from?
- Tim.
Where was the first place you went?
- Albertsons, to drop off Rosa to work.
What was the first thing you bought?
- Nothing yet.
Who was the first person to wish you "Happy New Year!"?
- Tim.
What was the first thing you ate?
- Spam & rice.
The first thing you drank?
- Water.
What color was the first shirt you wore?
- Black.
What were the first shoes you wore?
- My silver slip-on.
What was the first electronic (not computer or cell) device you used?
- T.V.
What was the first movie you watched?
- Without a Paddle haha.
What was the first song you heard?
- Owl City - Hello Seattle.
Who was the first girl you hung out with?
- My mom & Rosa.
Who was the first guy?
- My dad.
The first relative?
- Family.
What was the first thing you did when it became the new year?
- Follow Tim's New Year traditions.

What the Future Year Has In Store
What are you most looking forward to in the New Year?
- Whatever this year has to bring for me.
Are you getting married this year?
- No way, too early.
Are you expecting a child?
- Nope.
Will you be getting a new job?
- Nope.
Will you be starting a new school?
- Nope.
Will you be moving to a new place?
- Hopefully yes.
Will you get your driver's license this year?
- Nope.
Will you turn 18?
- Nope.
Will you turn 21?
- Nope.
Will you turn 25?
- Nooo.
Will you turn 30?
- Noooooo.
Will you turn 40?
- And noooooooo. :P
Are you going on a vacation this year?
- Most likely.
What movie are you most looking forward to coming out this year?
- Anything interesting.
What book?
- I have no idea.
What music album?
- I don't know.
Do you expect to find love this year?
- Or you mean stay in one?
Did you make a New Year's resolution?
- I did, but honestly, I thought about it & nobody ever follows it (even me).
Have you kept it so far?
- Yeah I have.
Will you be going to a wedding this year?
- No clue.
Will you get a new car?
- Nope.
Will you buy a house this year?
- I don't think so.
Do you expect to be with the same person at the end of the year?
- Nope, everyone is always changing.
Are you starting the year off single?
- No.
What do you most want to happen this year?
- Just to be happy.
What are you most excited about this year?
- The adventures that await me. (: